The 10 Second Twist and Shout
As I enjoyed a shower the other day, and just completed shampooing my hair when an object landed on my shoulder. It was a spider. I started dancing on the bathmat while the water was still running, trying to get him off me. Poor thing, by the time I quit dancing he was floating toward the drain, absent two legs.
When I think about it, the spider must have been roaming on the ceiling, and with the humidity, he slipped and fell. I am certain he surprised himself, too. How grateful I was for a new shower mat. With a rapid 10-second twist and shout I could have been laying on the floor along with the spider.
How strange one little spider could send me into a tizzy. Spiders and mice are the two things that cause me the most stress.
Somehow, I thought as I aged, I would get over my fear of mice and spiders. However, the more mature I am, I have still not developed a friendship with them. These days, I seem to have more questions than answers about life. Sometimes I wonder, have I learned anything, or have I just forgotten what I learned.
The one thing I know for sure is having a personal relationship with God gives me great peace. Through the highs and lows, disappointments and joys, sickness, and deaths, God is a trustworthy and loyal friend. Holding me up, calming my heart, and giving me the confidence to keep moving, even when I feel numb.
In the past, I have shared my sweet husband has been living in a senior lodge for the past three years. This last year and a half have been tough with all the lockdowns. Lyle found it hard to understand, not seeing the family.
Lyle’s memories have faded without the regular prompting of conversations and pictures we shared to help him remember each family member and the special memories of the past.
We speak on the phone daily to keep in contact, but he still will gets confused with faces and conversations. I know many of you have experienced these same situations, which is heartbreaking. There are many circumstances that we each walk through which bring stress and sorrow to our lives, and each one is painful.
When I know the creator of life and believe in Him, I am convinced I can trust him. I have a God who holds my life and my loved ones in His hands. I know He is better at handling the details of my life more than I ever could.
How blessed I am with God’s incredible protection, love, and forgiveness. I trust you, Lord; you know what I need and see me. I am not alone. I love you, Lord.
You keep track of all my sorrows, you have collected all my tears in your bottle,
you have recorded each one in your book. Psalm 56:8
So be strong and courageous, all who put your hope in the Lord. Psalm 31:24
Thank you, dear friends, for spending your time with me.
I love you all and am praying.
Have a wonderful week, keep Smiling!
I love your writing Karan!! You are beautiful in every way and you are so faithful in finding the beauty even in the hard!! We haven’t caught up for so long and I’m so sorry to hear about your hubby being away from you and the struggle to keep his memory vivid! That must be so hard and lonely!! Thanks for sharing with us where you are at what’s happening in your life! ♥️ Blessings on the journey forward with Jesus!!!
Oh Karan! Life is never dull where you are…not even in the shower! I see you have not lost your sense of humor through the hardships of the Covid experience. My heart goes out to you and your family when I hear of how confusing this has been for your dear husband. Love and prayers my dear friend🥰
Dear Elayne, Thank you for your Kinds thoughts. I think of you often and keep up with you and your beautiful family on Facebook. Let’s have lunch one of these days when we are able to get out. Lovingly Karan
I would love to enjoy a lunch with you my friend! Do you ever come out to my neck of the woods?
I get there about once a month, I will call you when I am heading your way. I will let you know a few days before. Hugs Karan
What a profoundly vulnerable post, from the spider to the lockdown and Lyle. This has been a relentless year in so many respects. My heart aches for you – you are suffering along with your beloved. In health and in sickness.
But also, what a poignantly victorious post! Not artificial sweetness and brightness; but a confidence that can come only from the confidence you have in your Heavenly Father. Thank you for your steadfast, consistent testimony, your knowledge that you are never alone, because He promised never to leave you… He has kept track of each tear, He has watched those crazy spiders and He holds you and Lyle in the very palms on which you both are written.
I love you. I admire you. And yet I know that it is not you, but Christ. And so I glorify God because of your radiant testimony and spirit.
Sweet Friend, Thank you for seeing my heart. Sometimes It takes a long time to be able to speak about the sadness we feel, and then how to put it in words. Thank you for your kind words. Much love Karan Dear Karyn
It’s been a very long year! I’m so sorry to hear about your husband. I don’t know if you remember me from Writers Resource Center in Fairfield CA. We were you honored us with your presence at the senior center in there. You brought giant sunglasses and all kinds of nice favors. That’s when I was introduced to blogs. I love your blonde jokes and I still enjoy them. Praying for you and family also.
I lost my husband over 3years ago. Thank you for the the wonderful blonde jokes. It brightens my life. Thanks so much!
Dear Janie, How delightful to hear from you, I remember you very fondly and the wonderful time with you all in Fairfield. I am so sad to hear of your husband’s passing, I met him when you were selling your book and he was helping you. Anne Denmark brought me to the event. I am hoping to be in California in early fall I would love to meet for lunch if you are available. Lovingly, Karan
I am so sorry to hear the news about your husband, Karan!
Thank you, Geri, nice to hear from you. Praying that all is well for you, enjoy your summer. Love Karan